As life was throwing the
bouncers at my side one by one and I was trying to somehow face them as usual.
Be its ups and downs in relationships or the hard talk with the boss at the workplace. Be it the unwanted stress given by the close ones or the constant
failure in a place for which I have been preparing very hard. And along
with all these bouncers, there came the inevitable bonus – 'The disappointment for
the past failures and the worries for the upcoming future.
Why did I take that decision
that day? It would be amazing if I wouldn’t have done that... Why didn’t I use
my brain to take the intellectual decision at that time? Would that I had not
done that mistake that day, would that I hadn’t fallen in love with that girl,
would that I had studied sincerely for the exams and not ruined the time in useless
things. And the most painful amongst all – would that I had listened to my mom-dad
at that time.
Or what would happen if I wouldn’t
be able to succeed in my future, what would happen if I wouldn’t get my girl in the future. What if I wouldn’t be able to give the best life to my parents, what if
I would be cheated by her someday, what if I would not be able to afford all the luxury I crave for. And last but the most difficult one - how would be
my future?
All these things were going in
my mind and I wasn’t able to concentrate anywhere. The lack of concentration
was doing nothing but adding much more misery everywhere. I rushed out of the
home to get out of the strange atmosphere and went to the terrace. The terrace has
always been one of the most visited places in my life, whenever I felt down. I have
always been a nature lover. It was a spectacular view from my terrace. The leaves
of the trees dancing in wind, the birds returning to their destination with
their large families, the blue sky with beautifully designed patches of clouds. All these have always been my best remedy whenever I felt down and acted
as the perfect companion whenever I was alone.
A little bit of turmoil and
disappointment was flown off, as soon as I put my first step on the terrace. A quick
smile came on my face as if nothing happened. And as soon as I was feeling nature’s vibes by looking at the sky, the flying birds, the trees…. I was almost
happy and was forgetting every despair which was biting me very hard just a few
minutes ago. I don’t know if there is an invisible magician sitting on the
terrace who takes all my sadness and give me all the happiness. Or is there an
angel who can’t see me in bad mood and thus turn all my laments into pleasure?
There was a beautiful garden in
front of my home. When I was a kid, I used to play there for hours and hours
with some of my childhood friends. Many friends came and left, but the garden
remained the permanent place for me. The happiness
I used to get there was totally ineffable. This garden has always been so close to me. I used to
reach there, just after returning home from School even without taking lunch most of the time. Most of my friends already used to be there
waiting for me. All the childish games I have played in my life and I still remember them, were initiated from there only. That garden was the perfect home for us. We
used to play, sit, talk, eat and sometimes sleep also in that garden only. By
the lapse of time, as technology interfered with the minds of us and as we
start getting older. The time we used to spent there started to decrease day by
day. And there was a day, after which everything was finished. No one of us had time to play, no one of us had time to go there and
rewind the good old time all again. It’s been more than 10 years since I haven’t
put my foot in the garden. I don’t know why. Maybe I was so much emotionally
attached to it or maybe it was all those past golden memories that were almost
impossible to get over.
Today as I looked down the
terrace, I saw something which gave tears to my eyes. I saw some children were playing
down and enjoying themselves in the garden. And in a half part of a second,
everything came back in front of my eyes. All the good time we have spent
there, all the mischief we have done, all the friends I have had at that
time. It felt like it was just yesterday when I was a 3.5-4 feet kid and was playing
there. I was so much attached to all those memories that I felt like I, along
with all my friends were playing there in the garden, and there are no worries,
sadness, disappointments, and lament in my life. As I was mesmerizing the golden
time of my childhood and I was totally lost in it, a couple of teardrops came out of my
eyes.
Suddenly a sound came from behind – “Anant, it’s been more
than one hour you are here. Is everything alright “? She was mom, I wiped the tears,
turned back with a smile, and said. All good mom, let’s go downstairs. :'(
I had gone to the terrace to get
over the bouncers, life was throwing at my side. I had no idea that I would
return with one more. And this one was much more dangerous than all those. As I
returned home, I was deeply injured by this bouncer and there was no treatment
for the injuries directly to “HEART” 😢
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