Ever wondered what will happen if you get to know that you will never be able to achieve your quintessential goal in life? The goal you wholeheartedly dreamt of for months and years (at times decades), dreams for which you burnt the midnight oil for ages, targets for which you sacrificed all your fun and leisure, and years you put in fulfilling the requirements just to make the desired results see the light of the day? I have dared to wonder quite a few times but miserably failed. Why did I fail? Coz, it’s beyond imagination. It’s so gruesome that it’s beyond the bearing capacity of a normal human being. The moment you stroll in that direction, your legs start shivering, your breath becomes heavy, your heart starts pumping volumes of resistance, and harrowing darkness starts blocking your view.
Pulling yourself up and somehow portraying yourself stronger, as you start moving ahead with staggered steps, evil witches from hell start impeding your way, and frighten you off with their horrendous acts. There are screams everywhere, creating a deafening silence, and a gloomy melancholic aura all around. Warm, gusty winds force you to reverse your pace.
All your tears have dried up leaving indelible marks under your eyes. You’re dying for a drop of water but have found solace in thirst only. You don’t need water anymore, in fact, anything anymore. You have accepted your fate. Fate, that was destined by the most evil person in the world.
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As you move a few steps further, all your energy exhausts. You are now forced to sit, as the boils in your feet no longer let you walk a step. Though you don’t want to sit on a surface with poignant materials – broken pieces of glass and nails spreading all around, you will have to, as your feet can’t withstand the body load anymore.
As you somehow manage to get down on the surface, a mis-hand placement makes you lose your balance and your entire body falls hard on the ground. This pierces your body all around. You now grieve in pain, but tears can't drop down your eyes as they have all dried up. There is black blood profusely leaking from your body. Yes, black blood! Your anger towards yourself and the world has boiled and burnt all your blood to turn it red.
You now try to close your eyes and doze off to minimize the pain. But, you can’t close your eyes anymore. There are ants, monstrous red ants everywhere. You can’t afford to even blink your eye for a modicum of a second. You wanna lift your hand and side them off, but you can’t. Coz there’s no power left within you. You are forced to bear all those terrible big red ant bites. Constantly getting bitten in the eye, you slowly start losing your sense of vision.
Seems like you won’t be able to survive for long. Hence, you hold your breath for one final time and put in efforts to take a surreal dip once again into the pool of dreams that you once lived for, and that unfortunately will never become yours in this life. You just can’t smile anymore. But, the mere thought alone of you achieving your quintessential goal aligns your teeth to bring a curvature to your face. And yes, even with your vision mauled by ants, hands and legs gone powerless, your will to survive crushed to death under the heavy wheels of failure - you still manage to keep a significant curve of a smile on your face. But no!!! How on earth could you smile? A gigantic piece of asteroid emerges out of the blue, falls hard on your face, leaves you to survive in unbearable pain in a state worse than timeless death, and forces you to breathe in repentance's phosgene every second.
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Harrowing, yeah?
The reality is even more formidable. So, just don’t let your dreams die for permanent! Put in what all is required, today, right at this moment. You won't be able to spend your entire life like this.