Dealing through a terrible betrayal from Zareen, his partner, no lesser than an angel, Salim’s been living in emotional & mental misery, with his inner soul facing formidable downs every passing day. Two years later, today, battling constant depression, undergoing unbearable stress, and suffering from chronic anxiety, he stands on the cusp of internal collapse.
Salim's living a decently good life, working at a place and in the sector he long aspired for and swiftly climbing up the professional hierarchy with his dedicated work. He is surrounded by family members, colleagues, friends, and acquaintances who wish all well for him. He dearly pursues his hobbies, often goes out on vacations, and extracts leisure time from his schedule to maintain a healthy work-life balance. He also invests in exploring the wonders of new romantic expeditions by spending quality time with potential partners, thus getting all the emotional, mental, and physical pleasures. He cherishes time with his loved ones, tries to wear a big smile, cracks jokes with his buddies, and wholeheartedly supports the underprivileged. BUT, despite getting engaged in all the above, he constantly remains a prisoner of his past and suffers from innumerable punishments deep within. One corner of his heart still secrets lethal poison every second, churning the trauma and adulterating all his hard-earned delightful experiences with negative flavors. Despite being graciously tied up in tempting worldly acts, he still mourns tears of peculiar loneliness for at least twenty-five hours in a day.
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Having a luscious hot brew in a cozy cafe with a charming girl; grooving on the beats of EDM, savoring endless sips of red wine, and completely immersing himself in the acoustic live singing with friends and colleagues at fancy clubs/restaurants; mesmerizing the pristine nature and captivating the exotic natural luxuries; and losing himself in the handwritten and cinematographic wonders of top-notch authors and directors - Salim, despite being heavily and happily occupied in the above, still suffers from the anguish of bitter loneliness deep within. Loneliness, that emanated out of an untimely and unfortunate partition from his oxygen, Zareen, a couple of years back, still haunts him to his very core and keeps him on his grieving toes every second.
It's not that Salim doesn't want to live, or wants to quit on his life. He’s been through hellish times for a long time now but has strongly faced it all with his mighty inner strength and unflinching mental poise. He's also well-concerned about his faltering cardiac reports, and is leaving no stone unturned in minimizing the damage by strictly following all that he could. From regularly spending time in physical workouts, yoga, and sporting activities to completely giving up on the enemies of health - sugar, oil, and processed food; from consuming all that's essential for a healthy heart, to regularly consulting his cardio. But, one thing that he's seriously lacking (and how), is his inability to beat his chronic stress, anxiety and loneliness, regardless of trying his (and the world's) level best. This, ultimately, is nullifying all his honest efforts to a huge extent, and afflicting much harm to his overall health. He's still left with enough motivation to keep combating his wretched destiny, but alas…the train has now left the platform, and gone out of his reach. He does try every day, every hour to run as fast as he can and get a hold of the departed train. But, instead of pathetically failing to do so, this furious everyday running is further straining his ailing arteries. Salim’s strong zeal to survive, has now, sadly, been overtaken by his failing vitals.
Despite all this, Salim still doesn't, and will never blame her estranged partner for dragging him into this horrendous trap, nor will he ever let the world hear his silent screams. Coz he knows well that it wasn't really her (Zareen's) disloyalty which brought him on the verge of an indirect death and cut down decades from his life, but only his own failure to bear the unbearable grief and heal the incurable wounds. The only reason, no doubt, was his own next worldly affection for her.
Salim may lose this battle anytime soon. But, he wanna make it clear to the world that it wasn't his only and the fondest love, Zareen, and the devastating breakup with her, that ripped his soul apart and took his life in bits and pieces; rather, the associated trauma and his own inability to cope with it. If something really needs to be charged for Salim's misery, it should be, none other than, his own eternal love and inseparable attachment to her.
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May Zareen stay happy ever after,
May Salim get to live a little longer.